Tuesday, September 25, 2012

The lies they told me

I am not sure how I imagined grad school to be. Certainly not this way. My professors and the grad students at UCLA weren't kidding about it being a "job". My schedule has been 8:30 - 4:30 during the week. Fridays seminars don't end until 5 and Tuesdays I usually stay till almost 6:30 for review sessions. Every time I get home I feel so defeated. My brain is fried and I am exhausted both physically and mentally. And all my homework are somehow still unfinished no matter how much time I've spent one them. I now understand why Dr. Park told us to call him a Dr. You have to earn your phd, they don't hand them out like high school diplomas!

After realizing grad school is no joke, I've been able to change my mindset and try my best to adjust to what my TA Gene would call "hell".

On top of the overwhelming amount of work, the differences between how ncstate was portrayed when I visited and how it actually is made me felt tricked. I felt that a lot of the information that I was given was not necessary true. Either because they were trying too hard I sell the school they sugar-coated a lot of the facts or I am just too sheltered.

I am still bummed that my main form of transportation will be driving. They praised the bus system when I visited, but in fact it sometimes would take me up to an hour to bus home. Not to mention about the numerous emails I have receive from the campus police regarding assaults and robberies. I thought Raleigh is suppose to be safe.
They also claimed to want their students to succeed and are not one of those department where they would purposely fail people at qualifying exams due to lack of funding. Maybe they are, maybe it just so happened that only one of the now second year students passed the exam. Maybe it just so happened that I also hear from an upper classmate that its unfortunate that majority of the people he came in to the program with are no longer here. If there are abundant amount of industrial internship opportunities available to students then why are most students on Ta-ship?
As a stats major, I should have known better than to fall for extreme cases.

The one thing they did not lie about though, is that parties do start at 7... Thankfully they don't always end at 11. Not that I have time for parties anyway...

Sunday, September 16, 2012

1 Month Report

Originally I was planning on going to the Greek Festival hosted by one of the Greek Orthodox church this weekend for some long-overdue legit food. I have been so deprived of good food lately. I even dreamed about being at Reb's house and getting plates and plates of delicious homemade dishes from Mama Lin. Then I learned that SparkCon is this week, and without a second thought I asked my friend if he would be interested in going to sparkcon instead of Greek Festival. So, on saturday morning I drove to downtown and found street parking (!!! unheard of. haha)

Downtown Raleigh is really pretty during the day when you can actually see the buildings. I felt that I could actually like it. My friend didn't show up until 40 minutes later, so I ended up walking around by myself. This is most definitely one the things I miss about  home - not being alone. Good thing that it was really interesting and things got busy pretty quickly.


Before I die I want to... wall (started at New Orleans)
I took me so long to come up with something. What do you want to accomplish before you die?


I am guilty, I drove... But there is no way that I am about to spend half an hour one way 
(not including waiting time).


Shameless JLo asked a stranger to take photos for her
Wish I wore a romper instead of a dress though, then I could have hung (hanged) upside down!

I really should give North Carolina/Raleigh more credits. It's not a boring city at all. It has history, though not a very glorious one but interesting nonetheless. There are plenty of things to do around the city if only one knows where to look. All the museumes (except one that's privately own) are FREE to public; there are at least 3 events (that I know of)  this weekend; concerts, ballet, symphonies and whole lots of things happening all the time. 
I just need someone to share the city with me (and take pretentious photos of me!)...

Happy Sunday! (NOT... school is so hard D:
-J

p.s. when I was walking around in dtRaleigh, these two artsy girl asked if they can take photos of me/my outfit! I was flattered to say the least!

Monday, September 3, 2012

Just do it

Biggest reason I love LA so much is the people. LA people are just so REmarkABLE (haha). But really, I am really grateful to have befriended every single person. I enjoyed LA because I had them there with me.

With that said, I figured I need to go out and make more friends. I went on meetup and joined a few groups. Tonight marked my first step of moving forward and toughing it out. It wasn't quite a glamorous success, but it's something.

It was at a local sushi restaurant (sushi nine). Apparently it's pretty popular among nc state college students since its close by and it's buy one get one free every day for sushi (or they call it BOGO). Why can't they just cut the price in half if they have the deal everyday? When I first walked in, most people there were all older except the main guy who organized the event. He was probably in his late 20's and he was considered young in that group. One of the ladies has a 22 year old daughter. THAT'S HOW OLD I AM!!! Good thing a guy my age (Also from LA too!) and a recent vet school graduate came in soon after! They were really easy to talk to because they both talk a lot at the same time they listen too, but it's still a lot of work. I just dread having to start from nothing again. WHY MUST IT BE SO MUCH WORK?! sigh

Next event would be the department beach trip this upcoming weekend. The beach is 3 hour away. I've never been this far away from the ocean my entire life. Oh, what is this craziness call Raleigh?

Saturday, September 1, 2012

It's only week 2


The walk home from the bus stop (uphill all the way)...
I can't quite pin point why I don't like Raleigh. At the same time I couldn't come up with reasons for me to like the place. When Jenn asked me to list five things I like about Raleigh. I honestly could not think of anything. ZERO.
Maybe I am just overwhelmed with school. I wake up at 6 in the morning to get to school for my 8:30 class. By the end of the day I am just so exhausted both physically and mentally. Even grocery shopping wears me out. I miss being able to stop by Trader Joe's on my walk home from campus and knowing exactly where the things I want are located in the store. I miss walking in westwood on a thursday night and hearing musics blasting from apartments. I miss bella pita. I miss the comfort of familiarity.

Even my backpack think this whole grad school thing is too much to handle!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Things happen for a reason...?

Another reason I was nervous about keeping a (semi)public blog is that I am not 100% in love with Raleigh. I am a really prideful person, and I only like to show the best of me to people. I don't want everyone to know that if I am miserable here.

People always say that things happen for a reason, god has a plan for you, and everything will be ok at the end. I don't necessary believe that. Sometimes our decisions and choices are the reason behind what is happening to us. We have to live with the consequences and sometimes missed opportunities are forever gone. The next best thing would be to learn our lesson and hope to never make the same mistake again.

With that said, I still believe that I will find beauty in Raleigh. I might not fall in love with it the same way I love DTLA and Westwood, but I am sure it will become part of me as I will become part of Raleigh.

haha, yes I have a picture of myself on my wall of inspirations. It serves as a reminder that I can achieve! (or maybe I am conceited...)

Friday, August 24, 2012

It's me, J Lo.

I've always enjoy reading people's blog. You learn so many things about the person you normally would not have the chance to notice. I tried blogging a few times before, but I never stick with it because I could never piece words together as eloquently as I would like. (please bear with me) So when Eliza told me that I should start a blog, I was a bit nervous. BUT I gave in once I read the part about taking as many picture of myself as I would like! Don't you guys worry, it's not just going to be pictures of me. I need to find my personal photographer first! ;)

Anyways, here is my first post documenting my grad student life in NCSU!

Somehow, first always seem so important in ones life. First kiss, first day of class, first car, first job... Aren't seconds just as important as the first ones? Every single moment should be treasured. Every blog entry is just as important (unimportant) as this one. Hence I am not going to make a great deal that this is the first entry. The main reason though is that I have to go get ready... Apparently party starts at 7 and ends at 11 here.... #WhenInRaleigh

So until next time!

Love and miss you all